“I always wanted space when I had too much time. Now that I have the space I have no time.” – Myself (age 13)
I would like to add that now I neither have the space nor the time for these ever expanding goals in my life. I will have to save some for retirement and living vicariously like most of us end up doing. And many people tell me that I can do it all that I don’t have to wait, but while I am crossing goals off my list to get closer to my main objective my life passes me by. It passes me by without me ever knowing if I will get to where I long to be. So the only goals I will be crossing off are the ones that will aid me in feeling and expanding the space around me and making the time to enjoy that space.
I never thought that what I would long for were untouchable, infinite, ungraspable things that could only be seen physically through complex mathematical equations. And much like those who never had love long for it without knowing what they want I long for space and time. How do you get somewhere you’ve never been before without getting yourself lost?
I am at least 75% into my journey and I can say that I am lost, but I am almost there. I do not know where there is, but I do know what I want there to have. There will have lots of space and time for me to roam in and loose my mind.